Diary Of A Heartbroken Lady: I Hate Him For All The Pains He's Caused And Is Still Going To Cause

I hate him...... for all the pains he's caused and is still going to cause....... I don't know how to go about it....... and it's killing me.....

I want to be with the man I love...... And it hurts to know he's got a second thought.

I want to know that I'm wanted...... skip that! I'm getting fed up, plus it doesn't look like he intends taking it far with me.

His words explains it all. He said "I don't know how far its going to go and I'm afraid because I might be wasting your time and energy"

No! those aren't the words of a man who loves and cherishes his woman..... But he said he doesn't want to loose me for anything..... Oh God I'm confused....... But a man who wants to go far with you would tell you so!

Words like 'wait for me, hanging there, bear with me, I need you by my side, never gonna let you go, etc.

John I love you but I want you to see the other side of life, to have your heart broken..... indeed we don't appreciate what we have until we lose it.

I've got to plan my exit..... its going to be painful but if you don't want to stick with me, then I can't force you to, or force myself on you.

It's not like the ladies are pestering you, it is you who always makes moves on them, flirting, cheating.

I hate you hun!!!

I thought you are my best friend....but you're looking at all my flaws and then...... I thought you'd stand by me...... Holding my hand and reassuring me that things will turn out fine. And letting the world know....... that there's a woman you are keeping in your life and how much she means to you.

Maybe I'm asking for too much!

Life sucks!! everything's so sore and I'm damn tired..... I can't go on.... I'll just fall ill or die or fall in a deep sleep and never wake up....

But Psalm 23 says that God is my shepherd and I shall not lack but flourish.

I'm tired.

I'm tired

I feel so pathetic and useless and it's so bad I can't feed well.

writing isn't helping!

I feel worse.

I'm just gonna remember...... that life's cruel.... But in the midst of it all, I Loved!!!

But I hate you